Have you ever had a couple of cats living together for years that
just never got along no matter what? Well, Dear Cat Loving Reader, that
has been the case with me and my furry sibling, Blue. Yes, in case you
don't know, I am a cat who is chronicling tidbits of my life. When I was
adopted by the Hun family, they already had two cats named Pinkie and Pepper.
Pinkie was the Alpha and very independent. He kept to himself. But
Pepper, who was the most affectionate, was very lonely. They thought I
would be good company for her. A few patient steps were taken before
Pepper and I were formally introduced to one another. At first we were isolated
from each other so neither one of us would stress out. Within a week, I was put
into a room with a French door that allowed Pepper and I to watch each other
through the glass panels. I was also given a blanket with Pepper’s scent and
vice versa. This was done in order for Pepper and I to get used to each
other's scent. Finally I was left in the open for short periods where we would
spend time feeling each other out which ended in flattened, pulled back ears
and mutual hissing. Pepper was the Beta and she was blessed with polydactyl
paws, so I had to respect that.
Eventually, we became close friends.
Eventually, we became close friends.
Then....along came Blue. Blue’s
mother who was just a kitten herself, had abandoned him in the Hun's backyard
as a newborn. The Hun heard Blue's cries and took him in saying that they would
release him back outside when he was old enough as they couldn’t keep three
cats. In the meantime, He received all of the attention for several months by
not only the Hun’s who took time off from their jobs to take turns feeding him
from a bottle and expressing his lower abdomen to stimulate him to relieve
himself, much like his mother would have done in his early weeks before he
could go to the bathroom on his own. I was completely ignored. But, at least
not by Pinkie and Pepper, who resented Blue’s presence as well. We teamed up in
order to protect our territory from Blue, who looked like little mouse. But, we
never had the chance as the Huns had him under tight surveillance.
When his ears finally
popped out and his eyes opened, the Huns would allow us to smell him but both
Pepper and I simply hissed. Pinkie retreated to a separate area of the house. Blue
was finally old enough to be left in a cage for us to observe him while the
Huns were away at work.
As the days wore
on I saw Pepper trying to reach his paw into the kitten’s cage to touch him.
When the Hun’s finally released Blue from his cage, His hind legs were a little
wobbly but he was fast little rascal. At first Pepper would be wearing a
mean frown and glare at Blue, stealthily following him as a hunter would its
prey. Pepper appeared as if to attack Blue. But the Hun’s were always close
by supervising.
Blue had no quorums
when it came to eating. As he got stronger and we became more tolerant with his
presence, he would eat with us and share the food from our dishes. Once Blue's
wet nose leather had made contact with Pinkies food dish, Pinkie would walk
away from it in disdain. I didn’t like to share with Blue and was relieved when
the Huns gave him a separate bowl with kitten chow and kitten soft food.
However, Pepper seemed to like Blue’s richer food and would steal the little
tot’s leftovers. I too would try to taste some of the leftovers but was
disciplined by Pepper, who was second in command to Pinkie, the Alpha cat.
I noticed that Blue would follow Pepper and I all around the house and
would be constantly hugging me and Pepper like a child would its mother. At
first, Pepper and I would be swatting Blue away and rejecting his gestures of
affection. Then, something happed that I never expected. Pepper’s interest in
Blue began to grow.
The next thing I knew, Pepper was teaching
Blue how to use the litter box and also helping him to bathe. The two of
them became inseparable. They began sleeping and playing together and I felt
very left out. Blue began to eat faster than me and would boldly try to steal
my food while I was still eating! I was wondering when the Huns were
going to release him back outside like they had said. I began taking my
frustrations out on Blue, and Pepper would turn on me in front of Blue. Blue
had found a protector in Pepper. I also noticed that the Huns were constantly
cuddling and kissing Blue and admiring his little white mitts and calling him
their “furry child”. I had white mitts too and black cummerbunds with pink paw
pads, but they never complimented them. Then the worst thing of all happened.
The Huns began allowing Blue to sleep with them in their bed as well. I may as
well have been invisible as far as they were concerned.
Where did I fit into this picture?
Well, I took what I could get from Pepper. As Blue got older he became
belligerent, needy and annoying to Pepper, and I was beginning to matter again.
I think my quiet, sensitive nature was a comfort to Pepper over Blue’s
bellicosity. The attention I received from Pepper as opposed to what she
gave to Blue became more balanced and I got used to her and Blue’s
relationship. I had grown accustomed to some me time and enjoyed having peace
and quiet from the two of them. At bedtime, I would sleep next to Pepper, who
would still affectionately and meticulously groom me, and then she’d switch
over to Blue who slept on the other side of her, when he wasn’t
sleeping in between the Huns. Years had passed when Pepper
suddenly became weak and sickly.
After Pepper died from cancer (a
whole other story), I felt so empty and alone. I had come to rely on Pepper’s
closeness and had taken her existence for granted, never taking the time to
develop a relationship with Blue, only tolerating and resenting him. Here we
were just Blue and I never to be comforted again by our wise, dear friend and sibling,
Pepper. She was the glue that held us together. I remember seeing
Pepper struggling in pain that final morning, as she selflessly climbed the
long staircase one step at a time, until she reached the Hun’s bedroom door, to
ask for our food for us as always. Pepper was a cat that was a class act
and I will miss her. Blue and I grieved for months along with the Huns,
but we grieved separately. One day, Blue gave me the warmest hug, and for
a moment I felt as if Pepper was comforting me, but when I realized it was
Blue, I successively scratched and hissed at him, until he got the message
never to hug me again. I regret that. After living with Blue for five years, I
wonder…. will he ever furgive me?
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